On March 23rd, 2012, my bandmates and I (along with our friends Alex Hwang and Ria Kim) endeavored to fly out to Richmond, VA and embark on an East Coast tour featuring 8 shows in 8 nights in the great cities of Richmond, Annandale, Brooklyn, New York, Piscataway, Boston, Manchester, and Albany. Performing in 4 different churches, 2 universities, and 2 secular bars and driving a total of nearly 2,000 miles, it was a week and a half full of life lessons, unhealthy foods, semi-tragedies, tears, meeting amazing people, raunchy jokes, epic freestyle battles, memorable experiences with an over liberal usage of hot sauce on philly cheesesteaks in the middle of the night, and the Holy Spirit. Whenever I get a chance, I will humbly attempt to chronicle at least a portion of the unforgettable moments we shared together. Here's Day 3...
Day 3 - Sunday Service and Pho
So after a long night of No-Look Psoy, we went to church, sang that song "My God's not dead! / He's surely alive! / And he's living on the inside / Roaring like a Lion" and that song was stuck in my head for the rest of the day. We then went to eat pho at a pho restaurant.
So this East Coast Tour was not funded nor sponsored by anyone. Everyone paid for their own airfare on their own dime, not knowing whether or not we would break even on merch sales or anything like that. So let that be a life lesson for all of you aspiring to be independent christian rock stars - um. airplanes are expensive. and so are tickets to ride on them. and you have to pay for them.
Anyway, most all of us were hoping to live in frugality for the entire 9 days of the tour on account of the upfront costs and the uncertainty of breaking even or making a profit, so at this pho restaurant about half of us didn't order any food. Like, hey! we would like a table for 8 but we're only going to order 3 bowls of pho and maybe half a plate of spring rolls. and waters all around! thanks! Vietnamese dude taking our order was not pleased...
So much so that Gilbert ordered a coke.
Out of nowhere.
When John finished eating his half plate of spring rolls, he must've felt bad about the general situation (john is just the sweetest, kindest, and most sensitive guy i know facetiously), so he was like, "alright guys. lets go." and he got up. all rushed. and trying to leave. like asap. like lets get out of here, we have outstayed our welcome long before we even sat down.
And Gilbert was like "yo. i haven't even drank my coke yet."
And then John looked at Gilbert.
And Gilbert looked at John.
And they got in this mad heated argument and ended up punching each other in their respective eyeball sockets repeatedly until the Richmond police department came to break it up.
No i'm kidding that didn't happen. But Gilbert did mention something about not finishing his coke.
So then we were all ready to go. Time to drive 3 hours from Richmond to Annandale for our second show in 2 nights.
But John was taking a poo poo, and he took a really long time.
Still Day 3 - Tears in Annandale
So I don't like to cry in front of other people. I do do it occasionally, but I am conditioned to dislike this display of weakness, not because I fear being portrayed as weak, but because it looks and sounds ridiculous. I'm happy to announce to people that I have my set of insecurities and moments of deep emotional weakness, but having the inflections of my voice turn uncontrollably funny, and then that face I make when I cry... my lips, against my own will, disfiguring into this irregular sort of a frown... it's just embarrassing. or whatever.
But as soon as we began to worship in Annandale, my spirit (as in like my inner man... as in like my true self... as in like the part of the human experience that is invisible yet more tangible than anything you could feel with your supposed 5 senses... or whatever) was overwhelmed with an honest sense of the presence of God. I don't think I'll ever forget this night. I just began weeping during worship (which was led by the church's worship team). But this sort of weeping wasn't so bad. no one was watching me. It was my private moment before YHWH. Which is not embarrassing in the least bit. It's not like crying in the middle of a tnb song in front of a bunch of people whom I have never met in the city of Annandale.
But back to being less sarcastic. or whatever. Right before worship began, I had met two awesome dudes, Dan and Joe. Just two dudes. Alright fine you got me. Dan is a pastor. But Joe was just a dude. An awesome dude. Both of them were. But they were sharing with us their heart for the Northern Virginia area (NOVA as the locals call it). And initially I was like, alright here goes some charismatic dudes playing that spiritual mapping card, which I don't hate. But then during worship (when I was crying), I had this honest spiritual encounter where maybe I began to feel their burden for the city. or whatever.
So Alex Hwang just kills it. He's really good at killing things. Except maybe jokes. He doesn't kill jokes. But he kills acoustic sets. And he's killer on instagram. Follow him. Alextma. Seriously though. He's great.
And then TNB goes on. And I'll never forget this set.
So first of all, it's a super asian crowd. Which I don't hate. But Alex made a hilarious joke during his set. He was like, "Hey, I know it's really quiet here, but I can see you guys are looking at me really intently with no emotion or movement at all because you guys love and appreciate what you're hearing." Or something like that, except 12 times more witty and with spot on timing.
So Alex finishes and when we are introduced the audience claps, but they are mad tame. And chill. And we had some technical difficulties, so setting up was taking a little longer than anticipated and you could just feel that tension in the air. Just like silence while we're setting up, and so Joe and Alex decide to do some dialogue during this time, and I made an interjection saying something about sitting-still being a love language which I thought was clever and well received at the time but typing it up now, it just sounds unconditionally lame.
Eventually, John starts playing the intro to words, and it just feels good right from the beginning. Having played the night before, I think we were all a little tighter musically, and we're feeling the energy through the first few fast songs, and I'm singing these songs like it's the first time I've ever sang em (in a good way), (as in like these words have never meant more to me than today). or whatever. but then we get to this dramatic Bass and Electric instrumental section. it's the intro to the song "To Do It My Way"
And I should mention at this point, that for all my making fun of charismatic people, I pray in tongues and stuff in secret. And during this portion of the set, where I don't have to do anything, I like to pray in tongues under my breath. I know. The cessationist readership for my blog will probably drop off like crazy after this. Or something.
So I'm praying in tongues like I typically do, but something is different about this night. I again feel this overwhelming yet sincere presence. Sure. You're absolutely right. There is the very strong possibility that this all may have been on account of the lack of sleep I got thanks to No-Look Psoy, but nonetheless I felt something real. And I almost forgot to sing my verse for My Way altogether. And at certain points of this song, I felt like breaking down, but then we sang Rice Kimchi and Eggs right after and I did this freestyle bit at the front end about Alpha and Zordan from Mighty Morphin Power Rangers so that helped me regain my composure but then we sang Awaken the Dawn, which we weren't supposed to sing that night. But we did.
So there's this part in the third verse that goes like this:
As I start to think
I start to smile
Cuz you start to speak
and You speak so loud
You say I wasn't made for mediocrity...
(Kids, it is pretty lame to quote your own song in your own blog and discuss how your own song moved your own heart)
So right as I got to that part of about God reminding us that His creating and forming us in His own image was never for the intent of mediocrity, that overwhelming thing I told you about started getting stronger, and at this point, I was ready to weep, because I sincerely felt YHWH speaking to me.
(Kids, it is pretty lame to say that God spoke through you to you with words that you wrote in a song about you. no really. it is. but whatever.)
And then. We ended the night with our arrangement of Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing.
Everyone stood up, and it was a powerful moment. Especially that whole bit about binding our hearts with the chains of God's goodness to keep us from wandering from Him. But when we got to this part of the song, I kind of lost it:
Oh that day when freed from sinning
I shall see Thy lovely Face
Well no, I didn't like crawl into a ball or anything, but I literally could not sing. My vocal chords were incapable of moving at this point. Not because God supernaturally did something to it but because I was crying.
And after the song, we got to pray for NOVA. And although I was the dude praying aloud into the mic, I felt all of us standing before YHWH together, petitioning with sincere and humble hearts for His presence to be made known in Annandale and Northern Virginia.
After the show, we got to mingle and kick it with some amazing people, Dr. Josephine Kim, Pastor David, Joe Kim, Pastor Dan, James Han from AMP, and David Lim (the greatest) just to name a few...
So Day 3 ended on an amazing note,
but just 4 hours from then would be the most frustrating moment of the entire trip for me...